Have I ever told you that I used to lie to myself?
My lies to myself used to be quite grand especially when I was grieving. The list was so big that it felt like I was adding at least two new lies every day.
I lied even about going to the grocery store,
cleaning the house,
going out on a date,
being present with my girls,
hating my job and the list goes on.
But the biggest lie I would tell me was that I was a victim of my circumstances.
The more lies I said the more passive I became towards life.
But one day… by accident I think,
I started telling myself small truths.
“Maybe I can go on a road trip with my girls, it can’t be that hard.”
“Ok maybe one date, he might not be the worst guy in the world.”
“I should apply for that job, you never know I might get it.”
Then it started happening.
Small miracles of life would come into my day.
I got the job, the date was good, the road trip rocked, the grocery store was not too far after all.
I learned that I had to stop the lying and start living in my truth.
When I did, life showed up with a big smile on her face.
I know it is not going to be easy at first.
it will be harder in the beginning.
Harder to tell yourself the truth than lie and do nothing.
Hold on tight.
Prepare yourself for the storm.
Get ready to fight for your life.
Get ready for the most important battle.
The battle to be honest with yourself.
The battle to walk out of your comfort zone.
Opening that door is never going to come naturally.
You actually have to force your hand.
But I am going to ask you for something very important.
“Don’t over think the truth,
Mule it over.
And talk about it with everyone you know.
Just be honest.
When you do, you start to see yourself through your own truth and you become the rebel that you have always been.
The warrior you know you are.
The lover you promised you could be.
The doer, and the fighter.
The fighter of the truth.
Now I am not saying you might not tell yourself a white lie here and there.
Just don’t grow the list like I did.
The list of lies is a trap that holds you away from your dreams.
Now go write your list of lies, draw a line in the center and add the list of your truths.
You know which list I would go with.
With truth and some dare,