We might never meet in person but if we did I would want you to know that you are so beautiful.
That your toughest nights are shared with me.
That your invisible losses have been seen even by one person.
That no matter how much you have been through,
That you are worthy of all the stars in the sky.
That if I could hold your hand every day I would.
That my life is changed by you forever and ever.
And that even though I am just a stranger who lives thousands of miles away, know that I feel as close to your heart as you do.
Because our hearts hurt as one.
Because our lives have mirrored one another.
And because my darkest nights have been like yours.
If this was the last time we meet I would want you to remember hope.
While we would be sitting together just across from one another, you would feel this unbelievable and immeasurable amount of hope.
It would feel like a brand new feeling inside your chest.
It would seem as if the windows in the room opened wide.
Without being able to put into words,
you would know that you too can live again after loss.
And that all the scary thoughts and painful moments will fade away one day.
If I was a fairy godmother I would ask for a magic wand that could take painful memories away.
A magic wand that would take the moment of impact away.
That moment when you hear the news of the accident.
The moment when you get the call.
The moment when the cancer wins.
The moment when he leaves.
The moment when you say goodbye.
The moment when you are ignored.
The moment when you lose your job.
You know that moment that hurts so much.
I wish I could take that one moment away.
But I know that the universe,
God, magical fairies, energy, spirit guides, angels would never grant me this wish, because they know that that moment of impact is the key ingredient to growth, true love and real change.
But even without the ability to take away the most painful moment in your life, know that I believe in your ability to make that moment count.
To make that moment change the course of your life in ways you have never imagined.
I know it is hard to believe from a total stranger you have met online,
who lives far away.
But know that throughout this letter I sat right next to you.
Right there. By your side. Just you and I.
All my love